In all things, including pain, my hope is in the one who took my sin and will someday make me whole. It's a daily battle that the flesh often wins. The value of Christ and the understanding of my utter depravity is at least one blessing my despair has given me. May God help those who like myself suffer in this world, to fix their eyes on the next world. Spurgeon's great success and legacy in the gospel, is no doubt partially owed to what he suffered in this life, so that he could more accurately proclaim the way into the next life glorious.